I finally have time to write more. I think I left off at the conversation we had with the doctor.
First let me tell you about the Chaplin. She came into the room and introduced herself and ask how Silas was feeling. Then she ask us what church we went to. She said she was Baptist, also. Why she ask that question I have no idea! (Well, in retrospect I guess I know!) I was sitting on the sofa and told her how God had been blessing our church and our people. (I guess I was filled up and tears started trickling.) I told her God was so good to us, but we are so unworthy and don't deserve His blessings. I could see then that she started getting uncomfortable. She prayed and left. I am not her judge, but somehow the Lord just put her on my heart to pray for her. So many people have a head knowledge and think works will get them in. Maybe she has never been around where God pours out His blessings on a service. Maybe she doesn't hear many express the goodness of God. I don't know the situation ~ but I am glad the Lord gave me a few words. Normally I would sit back and let my husband do all the talking.
That is another thing that the Lord spoke to me about. Hiding behind my husband because he is so bubbly and never meets a stranger! That may be a small thing to you, but for my personality ~ guess I will stop right here and say God can help us change things that make us want to let the other person do it because (You know, I'm just the kind that would rather stay in the background and pray and not be in the fore front.) I think God kind of gets sick of excuses. With His help I will try to break out of that bondage. You may not think it is bondage but the devil would have us to stay in that little circle and never do anything. I think when we put forth an effort the Lord will be right there to help me. I am depending on Him!
I know this mostly seems about me, but really, it is about Him. Because I would be nothing without Him.
I remember about 15yrs. or so ago, I was talking to my son. I said, (And here's that dumb excuse again that must have disappointed the Lord.) I was saying to him how more dangerous it was to go knocking on doors and inviting people to church than when he was young. His reply, "Mama, I don't buy that! Aren't you serving the same God that you served back then?" Oops! He really touch a nerve. Here my son, that I had raised in church, telling me that God can keep me safe. He wasn't being disrespectful, just telling me what I had taught him. He has the same personality that I have but somehow men have a way of overcoming easier. He is a deep thinker but when he starts talking, he can talk.
Have you ever enter into a conversation and when you get home the devil makes you think that what you said was stupid? He has done that to me so many times. But I am sick and tired of him doing that to me. If I make a fool of myself talking then I will be a fool for Christ. Pray for me alone this line. I will have to write more tomorrow.
Guess I won't get to the doctor today. But he is a Christian and the story is good~ ~